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I am the dirt from which I was born
When
People leave prints on my back
With their feet
And shove dust in my throat
With their toes
And leave me coughing
As they walk off
As though
I belong on the ground.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Low Roar
  • Reading: I Am the Messenger.

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I-am-more-than-words
I am no one.
Artist | Student | Varied
United States
People sometimes ask me what I think of the future. It’s a variable; I worry that someday the people I care about will desert me, which I know eventually they will. I’m afraid this fear at times defines me. I yearn for those I care about most to feel the same for me even if it is not possible for them to do so. I want to apologize for my every wrong doing unto them. I fear that one day near the close I’ll look back at my days disappointed in myself for never being bold or intelligent enough to accomplish for what I find myself clutching- open air. But unlike variables in math, we never figure out what the future holds. For we are always living right now. The future never comes with the morning. Because the days just break, collapsing into a thousand shards. They collide with tomorrow, and turn gray with the past. The here and now you never forget because you always find yourself living it. I can’t see much into my future because it seems impossible that it can come. I have a bit of trouble perceiving; maybe I should fear my own short-sightedness. Most of the time I feel like I slip through life half awake, everything I love dispersing before I have the chance to even admire it. The pain of wounds vanishing before they sink in. I think I don’t fear specific things about the future, maybe more of the prospect that I don’t know what’s coming.
My life is all based on what I do today, the chances I’ll trip upon. Which ones I miss when my eyes are closed or because I look ahead instead of at my feet. At least I know that when I clutch air what I’m holding still makes me breathe.


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Fro7a Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I loved your bio .. it reminds me of my life, which I couldn't ever describe, never could solve it's sadness .. Of course you are more than words dear .. I thank you for giving us this strength :heart:
I wish you have a great life, keep going :aww::rose:
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I-am-more-than-words Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you for your kind words, my friend. (And the watch too.)
It means a lot to know someone found some meaning in what I have said.
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Fro7a Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Glad that it ment a lot to you dear .. I wish you keep on writing, I'm already in love with your words.. Reading new writings from you would make my next coming days.. Hope to see some soon :blowkiss:
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I-am-more-than-words Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Student General Artist
You are so nice. I actually write all the time, I just seldom post it here.
I like my work, but for the most part I'm the only one who ever sees it.
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FreyjaMeili Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you ever so much for the Llama!!:heart:
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I-am-more-than-words Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Student General Artist
Of course.
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BlueMoonArtistry Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student General Artist
Your bio really made me think about my own life... thank you for your powerful words.
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I-am-more-than-words Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student General Artist
Oh you're welcome.
I didn't even know anyone read those. Thank you for taking the time.
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pin-n-needles Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you very much for the fav - really appreciate it :D I'm glad you found my work worth your time :D

Greeting from Poland!
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I-am-more-than-words Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2014  Student General Artist
Your work was very worth my time, wonderful indeed.
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